It’s been a while since I wrote a proper post. To tell you the truth I was really getting tired of just giving out links a-la-blogspam, so I’m happy about getting back on the horse.
What brought this sudden burst of inspiration? Let me see if I can convey the mood: you know how after an action movie you get out of the theater feeling like getting into a fight, fantasizing about getting mugged and opening a can of whupass on the would-be mugger? Well, I finished a book last night, and that gave me the motivation to start writing myself. It’s not the first time this happens to me, I always feel like I can be the next Oscar Wilde when I’m reading a good book. Plus, I actually feel like I have something to communicate (which I learned is something important but not always a necessity), so that helps.
For the past few weeks I’ve been having a “beginning of life crisis” [get it? As in mid-life crisis? Oh, forget it]. It’s really messing me up because I keep losing sight of the goal and just wallowing in its emotional baggage. I’m a very goal-oriented person when it comes to little everyday tasks, but when it comes to these things I’m clueless. Let’s just say that having a “beginning of life crisis” feels like a problem I should have had at least 5 or 6 years ago – it doesn’t sound like it would suit a 27 year old guy with a B.Sc. in chemistry (fingers crossed in a couple of weeks).
Let’s get back on track for a second, let me explain what I’m thinking about: what I’ve studied until now is physical chemistry, but my hobby has always been the internet in its broader sense: technology and business news, social sites and stupid flash games, podcasts and aggregation sites. Now, normal people have hobbies and careers and most of the times they can keep them separated; but I don’t want to do that. I want my career to be the internet, but how do I do that? You can’t really start out by being a panelist on TWiT, right? (Although I’d be f***ing awesome, but that’s beside the point). I’m not much of a code monkey, and I can’t be a web-designer – the way my blog looks right now I guess you can assume that much – but what can I do? I’d love to assist production on Revision3 for example, I mean Patrick Norton or Veronica Belmont don’t seem to have studied much more than me, so why can they do what they do and not me?
I’m not sure I’m suited for an academic career and being mediocre at what I do would kill me. I don’t think I should give up, especially given the fact that if I do continue to grad school I would just postpone this feeling for another two or three years. I’ll be in exactly the same situation I’m in right now, the only difference being that I would have dug myself a bigger hole.
The easy way out would certainly be going to grad school. I’m not sure what to do. I’m afraid, I guess, to peruse anything life-altering although that is exactly what I need. I think I’ll start by sending my CV to Revision3. Oh, and to Leo Laporte too. Just to test the waters. No harm in that, right?
